Day 23: Confession Day
I am dealing today! You know dealing as in the sense of always wanting to be charging forward. I jump out of bed, grab my cup of coffee and am on the lookout for what the “God Assignment / Adventure” is going to be. Anxiety sometimes plagues me as I deal with GAD (inherited –won’t go away-must be dealt with-prayers for it to leave are responded to with: “And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for you: for My strength is made perfect in weakness. II Corinthians 12:9) My verses for this year are Isaiah 30:15 – In quietness and trust is your strength and Psalm 46:10 – Be still and know that I am God. Well I have quoted these verses over and over and have been so proud of myself for staying focused. However, today – and if I am truthful, for quite a few days – God has been sending me signals that I’m not getting it and He wants me to give Him the gift of being Quiet and Still. I wrote in my journal this morning: Lord, I am struggling right now. Busyness assuages the yearning in my heart to think I am close to you, but you know how I deal with wanting to be “important for You.” You also know that in my poor little blond brain being quiet and still equals nothing . OK, Here is my hand. You are going to have to hold me real tight for me to be still. Oh my, I got still for a moment going “Duh, this is not natural and. . . . . .
Oh Oh Oh, I just got the picture of Spring Cleaning - I have been doing that for two weeks and as I clean out the clutter and cobwebs, things are roomier and smell so good. That’s what You are doing. Sweeping Me clean of Busyness so I will be clutter free and have a sweet aroma.
Hmm, I guess I have to be Still for Him to Create a Clean Heart in Me and give Him what He is requesting of me today. Thank goodness Jesus is in heaven interceding for me - so there might be Victory!