Day 18: Stop having a Negative Attitude – about God
Aauuuggghhh – I get up each morning with my poor brain scurrying and hurrying for God focus. God graciously gave me the gift of a song as I wake up many years ago. It’s like “instant” radio as I come to consciousness. This morning’s song – This is the Day, This is the Day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it, and be glad in it . . . la la la . As my little brain is singing away – and at the same time, as I always multitask, I’m going what is Abba wanting as my Lenten Gift to Him today? Oh, what is Abba going to ask me to give up today so I can “prove” I love Him! I begin to get that “sick” spiritual feeling – like I had taken a bite out of a “rotten apple!” Uh Oh, what’s up? Quieting down and following the thought pattern emerging in my head, I began to allow the Spirit to lead me. I sensed that my Abba was sad with my thoughts and started looking at pictures of Jesus. The Picture that grabbed me:
I sensed Him looking at me and asking: “You think I did this so you could give up something every day to prove you deserve My love?”Are we into the 18th day of the Adventure and you haven’t recognized that I am showing you “The Gift!” Back to Catechism One: The chief end of (wo)man is to Glorify God and Enjoy Him Forever! My mind becomes a whirlwind of thoughts.
Abba is asking me to give up the gigantic mess of negative thoughts concerning Him and His will for my life that are swirling around in my mind. To put a beautiful bow on this gift today, He points me to God Calling – March 16:
I am with you to guide you and help you. Unseen forces are controlling your destiny. Your petty fears are groundless. What of a man walking through a glorious glade who fretted because ahead there lay a river and he might not be able to cross it, when all the time, that river was spanned by a bridge? And what if that man had a friend who knew the way – had planned it – and assured him that at no part of the journey would any unforeseen contingency arise, and that all was well? So leave your foolish fears, and follow Me, you Guide, and determinedly refuse to consider the problems of tomorrow. My message to you, trust, and wait.
Oh, look what I see!!
Thank You . . . This is the Day, This is Day that the Lord has made, that the Lord has made - - - I will rejoice and take the Gift(s) today and just say “Thank You, Abba!”